My mind has only grown into a prison A cellar where only I know what’s going on in here A place that I like to call home Ever since that day I’ve only grown attached to this place As the days go by I only feel these walls closing in on me Constantly hearing these whispers within the walls They only get louder when I’m awake Constantly reminding me of what I am and who I am I cannot escape from this place When I’m asleep my mind is only at peace I like to call it my happy place All of the memories that I had in my past life replay As if I was in a field filled with dandelions When I was laughing with all of my loved ones As if the sun would never go down and the flowers would always bloom Those memories only filled my heart with ecstasy Maybe one day I could see my family and friends again in the afterlife I’ll cherish those memories and bury them deep in my mind I’ll bury them deeper then any ocean Until the day I die
The wolf in sheep’s clothing. The wolf always comes back to bite the sheep no matter how far the sheep runs. The wolf will hide in the sheep’s clothing, but soon the wolf comes out and devours the lamb. He eats the lambs flesh and tears the sheep’s wool off . The lamb begs can beg for mercy but the wolf will never change. The wolf will always be a viscous predator. Soon the sheep becomes numb to the pain and stops struggling. Pain is all that it knows, so why should the lamb run? No matter where you go, no matter where you hide it’ll find you. Even if the wounds heal, there’ll still be scars. The scars will never go away. The lamb will always remember the scars that were left.
"YOU ought to have seen what I saw on my way To the village, through Mortenson's pasture to-day: Blueberries as big as the end of your thumb, Real sky-blue, and heavy, and ready to drum In the cavernous pail of the first one to come! And all ripe together, not some of them green And some of them ripe! You ought to have seen!" "I don't know what part of the pasture you mean." "You know where they cut off the woods--let me see-- It was two years ago--or no!--can it be No longer than that?--and the following fall The fire ran and burned it all up but the wall." "Why, there hasn't been time for the bushes to grow. That's always the way with the blueberries, though: There may not have been the ghost of a sign Of them anywhere under the shade of the pine, But get the pine out of the way, you may burn The pasture all over until not a fern Or grass-blade is left, not to mention a stick, And presto, they're up all around you as thick And hard to explain as a conjuror's trick." "It must be on charcoal they fatten their fruit. I taste in them sometimes the flavour of soot. And after all really they're ebony skinned: The blue's but a mist from the breath of the wind, A tarnish that goes at a touch of the hand, And less than the tan with which pickers are tanned." "Does Mortenson know what he has, do you think?" "He may and not care and so leave the chewink To gather them for him--you know what he is. He won't make the fact that they're rightfully his An excuse for keeping us other folk out." "I wonder you didn't see Loren about." "The best of it was that I did. Do you know, I was just getting through what the field had to show And over the wall and into the road, When who should come by, with a democrat-load Of all the young chattering Lorens alive, But Loren, the fatherly, out for a drive." "He saw you, then? What did he do? Did he frown?" "He just kept nodding his head up and down. You know how politely he always goes by. But he thought a big thought--I could tell by his eye-- Which being expressed, might be this in effect: 'I have left those there berries, I shrewdly suspect, To ripen too long. I am greatly to blame.'" "He's a thriftier person than some I could name." "He seems to be thrifty; and hasn't he need, With the mouths of all those young Lorens to feed? He has brought them all up on wild berries, they say, Like birds. They store a great many away. They eat them the year round, and those they don't eat They sell in the store and buy shoes for their feet." "Who cares what they say? It's a nice way to live, Just taking what Nature is willing to give, Not forcing her hand with harrow and plow." "I wish you had seen his perpetual bow-- And the air of the youngsters! Not one of them turned, And they looked so solemn-absurdly concerned." "I wish I knew half what the flock of them know Of where all the berries and other things grow, Cranberries in bogs and raspberries on top Of the boulder-strewn mountain, and when they will crop. I met them one day and each had a flower Stuck into his berries as fresh as a shower; Some strange kind--they told me it hadn't a name." "I've told you how once not long after we came, I almost provoked poor Loren to mirth By going to him of all people on earth To ask if he knew any fruit to be had For the picking. The rascal, he said he'd be glad To tell if he knew. But the year had been bad. There had been some berries--but those were all gone. He didn't say where they had been. He went on: 'I'm sure--I'm sure'--as polite as could be. He spoke to his wife in the door, 'Let me see, Mame, we don't know any good berrying place?' It was all he could do to keep a straight face. "If he thinks all the fruit that grows wild is for him, He'll find he's mistaken. See here, for a whim, We'll pick in the Mortensons' pasture this year. We'll go in the morning, that is, if it's clear, And the sun shines out warm: the vines must be wet. It's so long since I picked I almost forget How we used to pick berries: we took one look round, Then sank out of sight like trolls underground, And saw nothing more of each other, or heard, Unless when you said I was keeping a bird Away from its nest, and I said it was you. 'Well, one of us is.' For complaining it flew Around and around us. And then for a while We picked, till I feared you had wandered a mile, And I thought I had lost you. I lifted a shout Too loud for the distance you were, it turned out, For when you made answer, your voice was as low As talking--you stood up beside me, you know." "We sha'n't have the place to ourselves to enjoy-- Not likely, when all the young Lorens deploy. They'll be there to-morrow, or even to-night. They won't be too friendly--they may be polite-- To people they look on as having no right To pick where they're picking. But we won't complain. You ought to have seen how it looked in the rain, The fruit mixed with water in layers of leaves, Like two kinds of jewels, a vision for thieves."
i know the girl i'm dreaming of is somewhere deep inside. but i fear the pain of changing, and the parts i'll leave behind. i see her in the miror, the girl i ment to be, but every step towards her feels like i'm losing part of me there's a future i keep dreaming of, but i'm scared i'll never see if she knows how hard i'm trying, if she'd even be proud , or if she'd look into my eyes and ask why i keep backing down. then one day i'll wake up, and the miror feels atrange, same room, same face,but somehow everything has changed.
From the first time I looked into your eyes, I knew you would never love me. At that, my heart shattered, and I swear it was audible, for your once-relaxed face fell upon me with pity. "Oh, dear Columbina, you who dance so gracefully, you who sing so elegantly, you who'll never love me, dance with me this dreadful night; won't you please just hold me." And when our hands met, I wished that time would stop; I wished that we would forever dance entwined. But seldom do wishes come true, and soon you had withdrawn. Through the night I looked for you, longing for yet another dance, but by the time I found you, you were already in the arms of another. I do confess my eyes watered at the sight; for I had never seen such a smile prior to the one on your face then. For the first time that night, you looked genuinely happy, and for the first time in my life, I was lost. What was I to do? When it was so clear in front of me that no matter what I tried, I would never earn your favour, for someone else already held it, as he held you. What was I to do? I was to do nothing; I was to remain silent, and let the pain poison my heart. What was I to do? I was to smile; I was to laugh; I was to cry. I was to dance, dance for the crowd's amusement, as my heart eroded; I was to laugh as each look in your direction felt like a stab in the heart. I was to dance, for it was required of me. Dance, and they will all applaud.
Why am I loth to leave this earthly scene? Have I so found it full of pleasing charms? Some drops of joy with draughts of ill between— Some gleams of sunshine ’mid renewing storms, Is it departing pangs my soul alarms? Or death’s unlovely, dreary, dark abode? For guilt, for guilt, my terrors are in arms: I tremble to approach an angry God, And justly smart beneath His sin-avenging rod. Fain would I say, “Forgive my foul offence,” Fain promise never more to disobey; But, should my Author health again dispense, Again I might desert fair virtue’s way; Again in folly’s part might go astray; Again exalt the brute and sink the man; Then how should I for heavenly mercy pray Who act so counter heavenly mercy’s plan? Who sin so oft have mourn’d, yet to temptation ran? O Thou, great Governor of all below! If I may dare a lifted eye to Thee, Thy nod can make the tempest cease to blow, Or still the tumult of the raging sea: With that controlling pow’r assist ev’n me, Those headlong furious passions to confine, For all unfit I feel my pow’rs to be, To rule their torrent in th’ allowed line; O, aid me with Thy help, Omnipotence Divine!
i feel so lost, i dont know where surrounded by thoughts, drowning in fear i hide my feelings, keep them inside with a thousands thoughts i cannot hide i'm standing still yet i dissapear, lost in silance, wishing you're near shadows around me, darkness so deep dreams i once had, i struggle to keep